sitting by a hospital cot

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I am writing this sitting in a chair in a brightly lit children’s ward in the hospital with a sleeping angel on my lap. I don’t need to write this one in order to not forget as today is one of those days that has carved itself into my memory banks. I am writing purely for something to do to stop my mind working on irrational overtime.

Beautiful baby had a seizure this morning, she was not unwell, she doesn’t have a temperature. Yet for some reason she fitted this morning whilst he who helped create them was helping her with breakfast.

To watch your tiny baby stop breathing and shudder uncontrollably is indescribable. My world slowly collapsed as I found myself powerless to help as he who helped create them behaved magnificently. I managed to compose myself just enough to sob out my address for the ambulance.

She’s fine, she caught her breath after eternity passed and her twitching slowed to a gentle rock and then she calmed and slowly the light behind her eyes started to glow again.

So now we wait to see if it happens again.

I am counting my blessings, as a mum of three this is the first time I have stepped foot in a children’s ward; and beautiful baby is showing all signs of being perfectly wonderful as usual; and my heart is bursting with adoration for my tiny little love.

To those of you who have spent more time on these brightly lit wards you have my admiration and support.

Fingers crossed all results come back clear and we are home in the morning.

52 thoughts on “sitting by a hospital cot”

  1. Oh no! I hope all is ok. I have heard that seizures are quite common in babies with high temps but I know that won’t make it any easier for you. Let us know how she is, will be thinking of you.
    xXx

  7. Oh christ, I am so sorry! I am sure that baby is going to be fine but you must be so worried. The Boy spent 4 days in a children’s ward having fallen unconscious so I know how worrying it is, and also how wonderful and attentive the staff are. Huge hug

  9. I know how scary it is, I’ve spent 78 nights like that during my son’s short life, and its terrifying.

    I hope its “One of the those things” and nothing serious, and your back home soon.

    Joseph had an admission when he was 6 months old, just for a night that time, and loved it! I think he likes having staff rather than parents!

  13. Oh No, poor little mite, hope she is ok!! Fingers crossed and a quick prayer to him upstairs.

    I have been there a couple of times and it is not a nice place:-( The staff are always amazing.

    Thinking of you and am sure she will be fine.
    xx

  16. Oh no :9 Hope everything comes back okay and, like others have said, it just turns out to be ‘one of those things’ (and a one off at that).

    Thoughts, love and prayers with you, BabyBeautiful and the rest of the family xxxxxxxxxxx

  18. I hope baby beautiful is ok and they find out why she fitted. I remember seeing a febrile fit & that was frightening enough. Hope you are ok as well, thinking of you x

  19. I hope your gorgeous girl is well asap. What an awful shock for all of you. Hope it was just a one off and all is OK. Great big hugs, lotsa love & prayers xxxxx

  20. oh my! Mahoosive hugs to you, baby beautiful and he who helped create them. Hope they figure it all out quickly so you can all go home, thinking of you xxxx

  25. So sorry…my thoughts are with you and your family. My daughter had a convulsion when she was a baby so I know how terrifying it can be. Thankfully it was a one off and she’s never had any recurrences. Love and hugs to Baby Beautiful x

  26. Oh sweetie I am oh so sorry. I can’t imagine how scary it must have been for you. Sending lots of get well vibes to your beautiful baby.

    Much love to you all xx

  27. I’m so sorry to hear this….you are a very brave lady! I hope you’re allowed home soon and can start recovering from the shock and scariness of it all….
    Lots of love,
    Jules

  28. I spend a lot of time on those brightly lit wards so I know a little of how you must be feeling. Big big hugs and hope she will be given the all clear very quickly xx

  29. A relief to get to the bottom of the post and read that she seems to be ok after the seizure. Let’s hope it’s just a one-off.
    I’ve only had one big hospital scare with mine and I remember how hopeless and scared I felt.

  32. Thankfully we have only had the odd visit to A & E with bumps and nothing serious. Fingers crossed and prayers that it is a one off incident and baby is fine. Hugs to you all xx

  35. No matter how much we tell you we have been there and we know how hard it is, NOTHING can prepare you for your own child having a seizure, it is very frightening. You have a lot of support but the most important thing is you are an amazing Mum. Keep strong but remember to look after yourself aswell. All my thoughts. She will be grand. They are so tough. xxxx

  37. Thinking of you all. Your baby is beautiful and she will come through this fine. There are no words to describe how you feel when your child is poorly but know this that everyone is here to support you and all of these wonderful comments and thoughts will make you all stronger. xxxxx (a friend of the Moiderer).

  38. Hugs. Been where you are. 1st time is always terrifying I am afraid to say it’s a regular place to visit for me know. Don’t panic I have met many moms in your position and they never end up coming back. It’s a lonely place though. Take care and kisses to your little one xx

  39. I’m glad to hear baby seems fine. Keep thinking positive thoughts. Negative ones won’t make her better and will only serve to scare you further. Hugs. x

  41. Hey jane hope everything is ok. My littlest one used to get breath holding spells – she would not breath and go blue, sometimes fit and then lose consciousness. Probably the most horriblest moment of my life the first time it happened but it got better. Am thinking of you and hoping it is nothing serious and something that can be dealt with. Hope u get some rest a bit too.
    suziexxxxx

  42. Thinking of you all. Hope your little angel is sleeping soundly and you are going to get something to eat and rest. Big hugs all around xxxx

  45. So sorry to hear this it is very scary being in this situation with your little one. Just remember she is in the best place (the hospital and your lap!) and she is being held and watched over by her creator.
    Thinking of you and praying that they will find the cause, the solution and you will both be home soon

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